Forgive me

So it has literally been a month since my last post. I am sorry guys. I honestly forgot I even had this blog. Well I will begin by saying that life is tough. I'm not talking about life in Asia, but life in general. We live in a battle zone. Always facing an enemy, whether it is a foreign enemy, or the enemy within ourselves. I must say that I am in the midst of redemption. I feel like I have collapsed to the floor at the doorway to reconciliation. As if I am so close I feel as though I am about to have a revived heart. No more fear, no more selfishness, no more bondage. I can no longer live a double life. I have to come clean before Christ. I know that its either Him or me... and all I can say is I have to choose Him. I look back on life and I see times when I could feel Him, hear Him, and almost reach out and touch Him. Why would we ever want to go back to a time before Christ?

Romans 6:11a (The Message)
"Could it be any clearer? Our old way of life was nailed to the cross with Christ, a decisive end to that sin-miserable life—no longer at sin's every beck and call! What we believe is this: If we get included in Christ's sin-conquering death, we also get included in his life-saving resurrection. We know that when Jesus was raised from the dead it was a signal of the end of death-as-the-end. Never again will death have the last word. When Jesus died, he took sin down with him, but alive he brings God down to us."

To be honest, we all struggle with sin, but most of the time I feel all alone in my battles. As if everyone around me is doing fine. As if I am the only one on planet earth who claims Christ, but yet can't get it right. I know what your probably thinking - "Me too." Why is it that we feel as though we are all alone in our struggles?

I am here today to cry out for true redemption. God I need you. I need your love. I need your forgiveness. I need a new heart. Take this heart of stone and give me Your heart. Secondly I am here to say that you are not alone in your struggles. One thing I can never get enough of is accountability. I need people to hold me accountable. People who will ask the tough questions and will hold me accountable. Questions like "Are you staying in God's word?" "Are you striving for holiness?" "What areas in your life need change?" These questions are just a start.

I just want to say today, here and now, that I am asking for you to hold me accountable. I am also offering my accountability. Why not help each other out in the battle called life? I need Him. I need your help. I need accountability.

With Love,

Andrew